I never wanted to fit in any place but your heart

So. I haven’t written anything in a while and I feel like I haven’t had anyone to talk to about it and writing it always seems to help. I miss my ex boyfriend who I dated for ten months until he moved back to New York. A long distance from Texas to NY was not going to work for us… More him than me. He is now dating someone else, here in Texas. He got mad at me for dating someone else when he was doing the same thing. I can’t seem to let go of him. I’ve had ex boyfriends I couldn’t get over, but not like this. Every day I just want to drive to New York and just show up at his house. It’s one of those things that I know if we saw each other again all the feelings and memories would just rush back. I don’t have the time, flexibility, or money to just pick up and leave. But I’m terrified because I don’t want to look back on my life regretting that I didn’t try. I don’t want him to be the one that got away. Life is too short to lose the people you love.